There is something
of an epic battle going on deeply within; it seems that as we continue to
awaken, we are touching clarity and divinity with one hand but facing
challenges, doubt and fear with the other. Our faith keeps us strong (most of
the time!), but there are moments when faith melts away leaving uncertainty and
confusion to rule the roost.
Intuitively we
realise that this is all a part of the journey of awakening, but the reality of
living with it can be somewhat harder to embrace. Of course, whilst we want to
be serene and walk in grace, that little whisper in our ear that is a master
doubter can chip away at our belief and our trust.
It can be hard to
stomach love and light when they come crashing in on the rocks of our reality and
it can be so difficult to accept that yet more shifts are on the path ahead. As
we gaze forward, we could be forgiven for feeling a sense of dread at the rocky
path with waves crashing in from both sides; whilst we can see the tranquil
beauty of where we are heading, the path to get there feels relentlessly
unforgiving.
Yet, perhaps this is
more about perception than reality? Perhaps we need to shift from trying to get
to where we want to be to simply being it now, in the present moment? When we
see life as challenging, the walls can come in on us making it feel hard to
breathe or move, but if we step back and realise that we are already Divine,
then everything changes, for we are no longer chasing rainbows that never seem
to arrive, but we are choosing to step fully and consciously into the present
moment.
So, whilst we may
feel energetically (emotionally, physically and even spiritually) squeezed,
twisted and wrung out, the more we can lean into this, the more we can begin to
merge consciously with the Whole and realise that our divinity is the force
that defines us; our link with the Divine validates us and completes us, for
the Divine is not an outside force, the Divine is within our hearts and souls;
it is us. Every breathe we take is a
reflection of our Divinity and once we can embrace this, our perception of the
crashing waves starts to shift and soften.
This is a time of
great change and release, and we have now reached a stage where facing Truth
can lead us away from the crashing waves in order to find balance in the
present moment. The distant Utopia may be appealing and beautiful, but what’s
important is what is happening now. The more we focus on the future and on what
may or may not happen, and the more we see Utopia as some distant dream, the
more we deplete our reserves and the further we step away from the Divine.
We now need to
change the storylines and let go of the beliefs that hold us in fear, doubt and
uncertainty. It is the storylines and
beliefs that can leave us feeling like life is spinning madly and wildly out of
control; we can feel alienated from the world and from our Selves as we lose
sight of our strength and Divinity, and let doubt chip away at every building
block of life.
It seems time now to
step into the battleground within in order to face the residual issues that we
may have thought had long been resolved. Some of these will inevitably be
thrown into our awareness and line of vision, for the need to find inner peace
is the force driving us now; therefore, if we choose not to ‘see’ these issues,
life will find a way of making us see them. There is no more sand left to bury
one’s head, for the waves have washed it all away leaving the rocks exposed and
the fractures clear to see.
Of course, this
sounds as though there are some deep cracks within, and for some, this could be
the case. However, for so many of us, these cracks are little nudges and
reminders to heal, release and let go of everything that no longer serves us in
life.
Seeking out peace
within is a powerful process; it is a sign that we are no longer seeking
external validation or becoming overwhelmed by fear or doubt, and it shows that
we are opening up to the amazing and wonderful Truth of vibrant and conscious
living. Such a path doesn’t magic away the challenges, but it helps us to see
that every challenge and every battle helps to shape us into the compassionate
and Divine soul that intuitively we know is our true nature...
