It seems that there are days that feel overwhelming and
days that feel distinctly underwhelming, but most other days are spent trying
to find balance as we oscillate between the two. We are in a state of flux and
shift, and at the moment we seem predominantly focused on trying to find
balance and remain steady as wave after wave of new energy and new
consciousness floods the earth. Understandably we can feel empowered and
focused one day, but then lost and confused the next, but without really
knowing why. Such rapid shift is intense, but it seems necessary now as we
shake up all that we know in order to find Truth.
It is all too easy to feel disempowered and teasy* during
such radical change, for we can feel frustrated and thwarted as we try to get
from where we are now to where we want to be. There is a sense of breakthrough
though as many of us are beginning to see over the fence to pastures new; and
we can see, smell, taste and even touch our dreams. Yet, to know where we want
to be and to see it is still not quite the same as living it and being it, for
until we live it fully we cannot be free of where we are now.
In other words, if we focus on our dreams, our present
doesn’t simply evaporate, for we remain in the present moment (there is no
escaping that!) so we need to move our awareness fully back into the present
moment in order to re-centre. Whilst we may be lucky enough to know what we
want from life, it is what we have now that is important. Of course, we may not
have the life that we want, but it is the
life that we have, and we cannot simply forget this as we head towards pastures
new.
We are all creators, and how we think and feel shapes our
lives, but when we see the future more readily than the present, we need to ask
ourselves what we are running from. Are we trying to escape the reality of the
present moment because it simply doesn’t serve our highest good any longer, or
are we trying to run from the present because the feelings are too intense and
uncomfortable? Either way, it seems important to acknowledge the present
moment, not as a way of ignoring where we want to be, but as a way of bringing
ourselves more to life so that we can live a more conscious and enriched
existence. If we spend our lives chasing all the time, how can we find stillness
and balance within? How can we touch happiness or bliss if we spend our lives
running for the hills?
In some ways, this all boils down to how we think about
life. Do we feel like pawns in a Universal game of chess, feeling powerless to
bring about change? So many see the
obstacles and limitations around and wear them as badges, partly to justify
being stuck but partly to hide behind them (avoiding the fear of the unknown
etc.). After a while, the challenges become the force that shapes life, and
with each passing day, the world feels smaller somehow. Yet, it is our
circumstances and our challenges that carry the greatest gifts in life, for
they reveal our strengths and our true character, and they remind us that we do
not have to remain powerless victims of circumstance.
Life can be tough, it can be hard, and yes, sometimes
indescribably bad things happen; but we
have a choice. We can let such events define us and take control, or we can
lean into these experiences to find our Selves. Whilst we cannot always stop or
change the course of events in life, we do have a choice as to how we deal with
them. We can find ourselves or lose ourselves, we can acknowledge the pain or
deny it, and we can run away or walk right through.
Of course, such experiences can bring anger, fear,
denial, pain, rage and so much else to the surface, and these can consume and
take over if we allow them to. All these feelings are valid and need
acknowledging, but it is important not to give them power, for that depletes us
on so many levels.
Life events and circumstances make up a part of who you
are, but they do not make you nor do they complete you (but we each have a
choice in this regard). In many ways they play the role of ‘button presser’,
for they reveal you to you. In other words, they shine a light within and show
you the Truth of who you are.
It is time to realise that our life is our own and taking
ownership of this may feel daunting, but at the end of the day, until we take
responsibility and let go of the crutches, the excuses, the obstacles and the
fears, then we can never be fully alive; for in order to live life fully, we
need to accept responsibility for the choices we make. Whilst we walk the path
with others at our sides, we need to be accountable to ourselves and stop
seeking others to blame when things go wrong. We need to stop being dependent
on others to lead the way or to take responsibility for our choices.
Life is a gift, and in order to live it to the best of
our abilities, we need to choose to be fully alive and conscious in the present
moment. This may invoke fear and anxiety, but when we move beyond the fear and
step fully into the magnificent flow of living consciously, then we realise
that we are Whole. When we are Whole, everything changes, for fear no longer
has a hold over us, and we move effortlessly into the role of creator as we
re-shape our lives from the inside, out.
With so much happening on so many different levels, it is
no wonder that we are feeling discombobulated and teasy, frustrated and uneasy!
Yet, at the same time, when we are honest and open, and acknowledge these
feelings and we somehow feel more balanced and centred. Of course, riding the
currents of such unpredictable shift is not easy, but if we can live more consciously
in the present moment, embrace ourselves as creators, accept responsibility for
life, and realise that our life experiences bring us strength, then we can
begin to regain our sense of Self and feel less like bits of driftwood on
stormy seas. When we become One within, we become One with the flow and with
everything both within and around us...
*Cornish for irritable (thank
you Fiona!)
